A Blast From the Past (Part 1)

Has anyone from the past, just popped out of know where?

Well, out of know where, someone from my past appeared in my life after absolute no contact for over 12 years! When I saw this person I was not even sure who she was, then she reminded me who she was. At first it was a feeling of ok....then and no interest from my side at all. I mean the past is in the past surely? But addiction is a cunning thing, soon the friendship started to blossom once more, at first flattering and so friendly in boxes on Face Book the next thing a face to face meeting and then the spark burst, before I knew it I was living in the past 12 years ago, the ego boosted, the feeling of "butterflies flying around" in my stomach...the sudden awakening of the addict had arisen.

However, I knew better and so did she, her life had changed (apparently) she was now reborn and had left the drugs long ago. But, as for the disease it was not in slumber no more unbeknown to me or her I am sure. She was in dire circumstances, her husband had passed away a year or more ago and left no finances for his 7 year old son or her. I could feel her silent cry for help and of course like a fly to a trap, with all the best intentions (or so I thought) started a rescue plan and assisted her with an immediate sum of cash and a position in my company.

I reasoned this person will make a huge success due to her need to make a success of her life. While, from there she became a companion, and enjoyed conversations about the future. Every one in my family got to adore her little son and the rescue plan escalated to dentistry and medication which she could not afford.

In the corner of my mind a old foe had emerged the first step of dysfunction the RESCUER and she had pulled out a card played in life the VICTIM. This "cat and mouse" game started to unfold. For some strange reason I could see the events unfolding, yet it was like free falling faster and faster.

Thanks to previous experience and knowing the outcome which is the drama triangle, I knew my Victim would become my Persecutor and I would soon fall victim to this sticky relationship. So, with lots of restless thought and stress I offloaded and spoke the words enough!

End Part 1